March 12, 2010

My first message here in my blog. hahahahah.. I feel so happy right now. Wanna know why? Here it goes.. I start my day praying to the LORD.. Asking for His instrument that will makes me happy this day. As i awoke at about 5:00 o'clock in the morning [oh my GOSH! im still sleepy that moment at the same time watching my favorite morning show o chan.2] anyway from that moment i take a bath after staring for 30 minutes at the t.v then took up 30 mins preparing then i go to school [without eating up my BREAKFAST:] Go back to my HAPPINESS topic, i feel so much gratitude when my baby [my BOYFRIEND] picked me up in school and eat PORK BARBECUE[our Favorite] then we went somewhere else and fell asleep in a tree without knowing that we fell that. hahaha.. Thank God for this day with those people whom i LOVE them much and the gave their LOVE back to me ;))

"No Jesus, no peace. Know Jesus, know peace."

`eTu mAGnDAnG BAnAt!!

`KIM.KIMBY.KIMMY.KIM-KIM.KIMCHIE.KIMYATX..

whatevah it is!!

akuh yan!!

 CoMpUtEr eNgInEeRiNg sTuDeNt fRoM T.I.P..

aKuH?! 

EwAN..

TaNuNg mUh sA NkA2KiLa2 SkIn.. HaHa. :]

nahi2ya akuh idescribe sriLi kuh..

 pero 4 the sake of 

those people hu

 admires me so

 and get angry 

cause dey

don’t know how 

to be me.. well..

 read this carefully

 and be 

CRUEL..!!

Who am I?

My first answer would probably be my name.

But, my name does not describe who I am on the inside.

I could then give the title of my profession.

But that is what I do.

I could then tell you I am a wife, a sister, and a daughter.

But those are my relationships.

I ask again, who am I?

I could describe myself as an extrovert and outgoing.

That is my personality.

I am organized in planning events.

But that is a gift God has given me.

I could describe my appearance, but that is not who I am either.

So many times I have believed what others say I am.

If I receive affirmation, then I feel worthwhile.

However, when I receive criticism, then I feel like a failure.

I have chosen to ride the roller coaster of emotions,

Instead of believing the truth of what God says about me.

I have tried to work harder to prove that I am worthwhile.

Yet every time I mess up or fail, I am reminded that I will never measure up.

I will never be pretty enough or talented enough.

I will never be skinny enough or do enough good things of the church.

I will never be a good enough wife or sister or daughter.

But, I keep trying harder and harder.

I believe the lie that if I continue to try harder, I will finally be "good" enough.

One day, God gently said to me,

"Stop trying so hard to prove yourself to others.

Get your worth from me. I've already given it to you.

Remember my grace.

It's a free gift and nothing you can achieve by trying harder.

Rest in my grace.

 

"TO GOD BE THE GLORY"

-EnD-